It's been a pretty normal day today.  Got up, got ready and went to church.  I was on nursery duty today...I just love playing with the little ones.  After church we came home and had some lunch.  My brother and his wife came over for a little visit.  Lizzy and I played Yahtzee, as always. :)  Right now I am waiting for deliveries.  Pretty normal and pretty boring.

Tomorrow brings another week of school.  What to do when they are in school....hmmm?  Usually I go to my dad's in the morning for coffee and toast after dropping of the kiddos, but he decided to go visit his brothers and his mom in Aylmer (which is about 2 1/2 hours from here).  I think that I may be taking a lot of walks this week...weather permitting that is.  It's been pretty chilly and rainy the last few days.  We'll see what the days ahead bring.  I do really need to get into a work out schedule again...I have been seriously slacking in that department as well as my food intake...really bad.  But it just seems so hard to get going lately.  I figure if I keep on trying one day it'll stick.  lol.

Anyway, I just got a call for a delivery...so off I go to bring someone their pizza. 

Have a wonderful day!

God Bless!

Sue

This has to have been the worst year ever for me and my family.  Not only have I lost an uncle and a husband this year, but now I have lost my mommy.  My passed away on September 7th at 1:35am.  I know that she is no longer in pain and that she in a better place, but it still really, really sucks.  I know that God doesn't give you more than you can handle, but why does He have to think I can handle so much.  I feel as if my whole world is crashing down around me.  What more can possibly happen?!  Why did this have to happen to my family?!  Why does it have to happen to any family!?  It just doesn't seem fair.  I know God doesn't make mistakes...I know that it was my moms time...I know that she is so much better off in Heaven than down here on earth suffering...my head knows all this, but my heart hurts so much.  I am still learning to deal with living without my husband...now I have to learn to live without my mom.  And my poor dad...he hurts so much...I hate seeing him hurt so much...he loves my mom so much...they spent 35 wonderful years together.  I wish I could take away is heartache...I would gladly take it on as my own, just so my dad wouldn't hurt so much.  It is so hard to watch your dad so sad and I feel so terrible when I leave his apartment and him all alone.  But we both know that we have to go on with our lives and that is what mom wanted us to do.  Yesterday was really hard, cuz my sister in law and I, along with my aunt, cleaned up all of mom's clothes...it was one of her wishes that it be taken care of as soon as possible.  Lizzy and I kept what we wanted, and then my aunt took what she wanted and the rest was donated.  Such a hard thing to do, but it had to be done.  I am trying so hard to be strong for my dad, my brother and his family, and for my kids...but it is hard...I know that some how I am managing it...I know that God is helping me to be strong for my family and to help me do what has to be done...if not for God I don't know how I could handle all that has been thrown my way the past few years.  He has given me such wonderful friends, family and church family...I am so blessed to have the people I have in my life.  I still feel empty inside and a little alone, but I know that in time it will get a little easier...I will always miss them and they will always have a very special place in my heart.